Letting go..

I learned the hard way that letting go some things that are not meant to be ours, is the best and the most courage things to do…because instead of focusing our vision and desperation mourning over something that’s obviously wasn’t supposed to be ours…we should have tunnel our energy and determination looking and working on other options to made it to our dreamt goal…

This way, letting go and getting over our desperation will be much easier and require less efforts…as we are not focusing on the turn out of the events that doesn’t seem to go the way we planned…instead we are busy working with our fine and complete senses to realize the dreams that have long been etched in mind…

I admitted at first it has not been easy…making my through..was like walking barefoot on a line of broken and shattered glasses…limping and bleeding all the way.. but then, when I finally came to my complete senses, I realized that mourning over is not doing myself any good…I lost my peaceful sleeps at nights, I even found myself drowsily engaged in an unworthy day dreams….it’s just worthless and tiring..because I’m still putting my hopes on something that isn’t even there…putting my hopes on something that I know won’t work…it drained me inside out…it was like I was living on a false hopes…which is so damned wrong…for god’s sake.. it really does feel wrong….

Luckily enough for me..somehow miraculously I survived through it all…slowly, I accepted the facts that we as humans can only proposed but then God is the one who disposed…I believe there are better things in store for me…what’s important now is to focus my mind in realizing the goal…whatever it takes…

This will slow me down but it will never stop me…

My first official post..

*phew*..been meaning to start my new blog since god knows how long..but I was unfortunately quite tied up with a packed..no..make it very packed schedule..

And now with the total of 7hrs of pour-out-what-you-learned-in-lectures-on-pieces-of-papers have been painstakingly completed (there are 3 more dashing forward though *sigh*) I finally think that I should reward myself with some times off the books and modules and reference books. So here I am browsing the net and officially initiating my new blog..this new blog will be mainly about the things I went through in my new stage of life as a student (kinda embarrassed to admit it sometimes since well you know what I mean..hehe) and my newly found hobby and passion that I treasure dearly, debating *wink*.

But then, there is not limit to the things that I will write in this blog as this is my blog and I can write whatever I damn pleased…excuse the profanities..hehe

And for those who drop by just to read these whimsical, impulsive and unpredictable entries of mine…I would like to thank each and everyone of you..